~Stars Are Blind~

IVE MOVED~! :D

2009-12-19T18:33:00.000+08:00

Moved to. . .

rainbowsandcloudsthatracesmyheart.blogspot.com

TOODLES~! :D

A Dedicated Post To Someone Special. ♥

2009-12-13T14:16:00.003+08:00

In times like this. I always bottle my ugly past up in my heart and let it rage. Emotional turmoil contantly happens gets the better out of me. It's hard for me to let it go. But only to certain special people, that the bottle of mixed emotions can be opened. That's not the point.

It all seemed too obvious. Leaving behind a trace that gives you a clear cut evidence of it. Was it because I wasn't too careful ? Haha. I don't know. But having you said that message on 2:49PM today. I truely understand. :)

They say, Patience is the key to success. I shall wait with patience till that very faithful day comes. I'm the type of person who is stubborn. Only sticking to one and not to many others. Why so stubborn you may ask. Because of what I call devotion and dedication. :)

But if the day never comes, I will be wishing you sincerely with my blessings. :)

What you told me about it was quite true. Never accept someone for their good looks only. But look deep down in them.

I have this Words of Wisdom of my own. " Never judge a human by the looks of perfection but the perfection of what consist in them. Thats the true perfection of all."

I dedicate this song to you. :)

Christmas Soon? Oh yeah.

2009-11-15T12:28:00.002+08:00

Hohoho~! Finally got the time to update my blog. Hahaha.

Gosh.. It's gonna be Christmas soon~! The Christmas Spirits are coming~!! HEHE!

Alright this is insane. I'm gonna go Bangkok for my Christmas.. Wonder how is it gonna be like.. ;D

Toodles~

T-shirt Printing Services Available From Me.

2009-10-24T17:20:00.003+08:00

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Just email me your design templates and t-shirt design details to me @

ravingpandax3@gmail.com

I will give you the price according to your design and complexity. I will give you the cheapest price that you cant even find anywhere else. Seriously. You can try going one round around the T-shirt printing shops and quote for a price, they will give you the market price for it.

But I will give you prices that can be lower then the market prices you find around!
Quality of the shirts are as good as the ones you can get for over $20-$30 per piece T-shirts.
Ink quality is from USA so no worries for a lousy quality of printing.

Either drop me an email or SMS me @ 81108160

Don't hesitate to order! ;)

Blah blah Monday.

2009-08-31T21:12:00.000+08:00

Right. Teachers Day eve.. Went back to GYSS to find the teachers but saddly all left. Released from sch @ 12pm. Shag..

Hmm.. So went to school with David and Kevin.. David lucky guy to get his testimonial.. WALAO I MUST WAIT TILL END OF THIS YEAR! NO FAIR!! T_T
Kevin got his N level cert. Lol, finally! HAHA! :D

So went to Lavender with David & Naz. Bought a shirt from Cotton On @ J8 and 2 shirts from Lavender! HAHA!
Will post a pic of it soon.. I guess.. :D

The Hangover on my 17th Birthday.

2009-08-08T20:15:00.003+08:00

Didnt expect my 17th birthday to turn out so great. For the past 4 years it has been un-happening.. But this year it kinda turned out the way I didnt expected it. Many thanks to Ram and Monica! :D

For 4 years I didn't have gifts. Haha. Unexpected but it definately made me happy! :)
Soooooooooooooooooooo... JN0901F sang me a bday song~! :D
A great BIG smile for me to start off my day! :D
Thanks to everyone who sent me their well wishes! ;)

So the day went as per normal... Elijah had to go back home to STUDY. Super random that he could be able to bring himself to RUSH home to STUDY! HAHAHA! So why hangover on my 17th birthday? Not becos of the massive drinking and stuff.. Cos of the movie "The Hangover". Many thanks to my best buddy, Eugene! :D
But his abit irrtating la.. Always disturb with why why why.. Wah lao eh...

Anyways...
Happy Birthday to the August Babies! :D

CHEERS! :D

2009-07-19T20:44:00.001+08:00

BLOG ON HIATUS.

Memoirs of TTSH AMK Rehab

2009-06-13T11:07:00.003+08:00

Last day of work at TTSH AMK Rehab yesterday. time sure flies fast. On the first day there we were hoping to get back to TTSH Main building. Now with our last day gone. How we hoped that we were still working there. :/

Well, people come and go. Here are the pictures. Haha. =]

It will come one day .

2009-06-07T00:43:00.002+08:00

I strongly believe that love will come one day. Not just me but everyone.

It is definitely worth the wait. ;D

Gahh !! Work work work !!

2009-06-04T22:00:00.002+08:00

Hohoho. 3rd week of work alr. Tmr will be the last day of completing 24skills. Gahh !! Stress !! LOL ! Hope can finish it man ! >.<

Confused with love. Love is blind. Definatly. ;)

Iluma

2009-05-27T23:14:00.006+08:00

Iluma is so awesome! LOL! Alright. So I went there just to buy an alarm clock. Haha. It's so nice~ So many pics to upload~ LOL! I'm like a tourist there. Take alot of photos! Hahahah.

I went to Iluman with David and Luffy for the first time. Then second time was with David, Kelvin and Shushu~ Hahaha.

A.N.G.E.L

2009-05-24T23:10:00.001+08:00

Angel from dreams which became a reality.

You.

Lost Feelings.

2009-05-23T12:58:00.002+08:00

It has been so long since i last updated. =/

Lost the sense of Happiness. Why? I don't know. =[
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""
I look up to the sky. I see clouds shaped of a heart.

I look down to the ground. I see our shadow.

I look straight at you. I see you beautiful smile.

Your smile mesmerizes me.

The day your gone, I lost the feeling.

Till the day we meet again, It will be in me again.
""
=========================================================

Term 1.1 is over soon.

2009-03-01T21:22:00.006+08:00

Alright. So it has been so long since I last updated. Hmm.. School life is fast and term 1.1 is gonna be over soon. With a term ending soon means an exam has to come.

Didnt expect myself to score high in my class test's. Hehe.

Biology Science Test 1 - 43 /50
Biology Science Test 2 - 49.5 /50
Nursing Studies Test - 46 /50
Term 1.1 Exam -
Bio : A
Nursing Studies : A
Total GPA : 4
Yay!

Hahas. I've still gotta wait for the results of my other 2 class test to come out. While term 1.1 exam is just like 1 week away. Oh gosh! >.<

I can't wait for 15 March! :D

Thanks Ah Do and guys for today! It has been so long since I last shuffled. Hahas.
Hope to update more during my 3 week March holidays. =]

New School, New Environment, New Friends.

2009-02-07T12:13:00.002+08:00

From Guangyang secondary to ITE College East. Things are so different over there. Of cause study hours are longer but things gets better over time. I meet new friends and some old friends. Stereotypical thoughts of people about ITE are ALOT! It's not all the same.

All may think Raffles Institution is one of the BEST school in Singapore which gives people the mind set that the students studying there are well behaved and well mannered. But I doubt it. Every school has their flowers and thorns.

Enough of those. So guess what? I got into the course which I have been always wanting to get in! :D
Nursing Course
Stressful? Yes.
Tiring? Yes.
Can make it? YES!

More of a dead blog or so. Don't really update it cause I wasn't able to find time to even come online. Haha.

Cheers.

Tagged Survey since 22 Dec 2oo8.

2009-01-20T20:06:00.003+08:00

1. The person who tagged you is?
Hu Deng Kai

2. Your relationship with him/her?
Best Friends

3. Your 5 impression of him/her?
-Super friendly
-Someone who can talk to
-Funny
-Get bored easily
-Like very free

4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
Helping me out in times of need. Like in Scouts and life. =]

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?
Don't give up! I will help you one!

6. If he/she become your lover, you will?
I'm not Gay. =]
But being best of friends forever is awesome!

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
His perfect the way he is. =]

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
Leave him at peace and not make things worst.

9. If he/she dies, you will?
Pay my last respects and attend his funeral and never forget him.

10. What is it you want to tell him/her now?
Thanks for everything, you've been a wonderful friend to me! =]
Like true brothers in the Brotherhood of Scouts! =]

11. Your overall impression of he/she?
One of a Kind.

12. How do you think people around you will feel?
I don't know. They like me or not, I don't force.

13.The characters you love of yourself are?
Cute? Lols.

14.ON the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are?
Trying to be someone else.

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
Hmmm... I never thought about this before...

16.For people that care and likes you,say something to them
I love you all too! You guys could have never been better. =]

17.Pass this quiz to 10 people.

1)Deng Kai
2)Azroy
3)Rowena
4)Ah Do
5)Rowena
6)Surah
7)Yi Fan
8)Alvin
9)Shi Ting
10)Janice

Here are the remaining questions.

18.Who is no.6 having a relationship with?
Surah. No idea.

19.Is no.9 a male or a female?
Female.

20.If no7. and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Lol. Impossible.

21.What is no.2 studying all about?
Sec sch stuffs. =]

22.When was the last time you chatted with no.3?
Few weeks ago.

23.What music band does no.8 likes?
Not sure. He likes anything that is nice.

24.Does no.1 have any siblings?
Yeah. 2 siblings if im not wrong. 1 Sister 1 brother.

25.Will you woo no.3?
Nope. She is my God sis. =]

26.How about 7?
Nah. His my brother. =]

27.Is no.4 single?
Yeah. I guess.

28.What is the surname of no.5?
I forgot! :O

29.What is the hobby of no.10?
Basketball.

30.Does no.5 & 9 get along?
They don't even know each other.

31.Where is no.2 studying at?
Christ Church Sec.

32.Talk about something for no.1?
One of my seniors who treats me very good and my best friend. =]

33.Have you tried developing feelings with no.8 ?
We are Brothers! =]

34.Where does no.9 live in?
Bishan.

35.What colour does no.4 likes?
Black.

36.Are no.1 and 5 bestfriends?
Nope. They don't even know each other.

37.Does no.1 have any pets?
I doubt so.

38.Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
YEAH! AS SEXY AS ME! XD

39.What is no.10 doing now?
Watching TV? I guess. =X

The Snowy Holiday.

2008-12-25T13:23:00.001+08:00

Hohoho. Merry Christmas! :)

Success! :)

2008-12-19T20:48:00.002+08:00

Woohooooooo~!

EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED! I passed my 'N' Level Examination! :D

I expected to get 11 or 12 points. BUT I GOT 8 POINTS! :D

WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~!!
Promoted to Sec 5. Nah! I'd rather go to ITE and follow my life plans. Wider opportunities are ahead of me! :3

Thank Lord for guiding me! HALEHLUJAH! :)

Hmm..

2008-12-15T01:24:00.003+08:00

Woooooooooo~! Interviewed by Magmug Magazine! So awesome! :D

Todays Street Shuffle event was a HUGE hit man! :D

Melbourne Shuffle, Jumpstyle & Tecktonik!

Special thanks to Magmug Magazine, Slackshoes and everyone for coming! :]

Hmmm...

2008-12-04T16:23:00.001+08:00

Geez.. It has been so long since i last updated. It's December already. Time sure flies fast. 19th December. Hoho. The day to collect my N lvl results.

Then before you know it. It will be Christmas. :O
It's gonna be another lonely Christmas. All festive seasons are the same. Its being treated like another normal day. Heh. But still,i'm gonna spread the love of Christmas to everyone! xD

Good luck to everyone whose collecting their N level results. :)

Rock Off, Rave On!

2008-10-30T10:14:00.003+08:00

Fooo yoooh~! It has been way too long since my last blog update. Hmm. Busy much? Fuck yeah. Imma just gonna do a short post.

Last night's event, Halloween @ Play was INSANE! Raved from 12am to 3 am. WOOO! Too bad i missed the first part of trance. UPRISING - BASS AGENTS! It was a sick shit man! Hahas. Fuck yeah too all the sick cunts who was there! :D

FUCK YEAH!

Sia la. I just remember today got tuition sia. @.@

Habes ahhh.. Zzzz.

On The Edge Of Breaking Up A Beautiful Family.

2008-09-18T20:46:00.002+08:00

My family. My kins who are there for me. Problems rise unknowingly and cause a beautiful family to break up. Just this early afternoon,my maid got caught and detained at M.O.M's so called hostile. She WILL NOT be serving with us in our family anymore.

Reason why she got caught is because she was not supposed to work at my parents shop. My Dad have to be away at his canvas shop for this projects. My mum is all alone at the mini mart which my parents opened nearby my house. My mum would defiantly need some assistance in the shop right? Like she needs to go to the restroom when nature calls. You should get the idea.

Right now,both my mum and my maid are at there being interrogated by the officers there. I prated to God that everything will be alright. I really pray and hope that the officers there will be lenient and let my parents off the hook. But consequences are bound to be faced.

It really hurts me that my maid have to go back to Philippines as she had broken the law that she was not supposed to be working here. She has been serving our family for almost 3 months or more. Whats more,my parents MAY have to pay the penalty fine of a minimum of at least SGD$5000 and the most of SGD$15,000.

It is no joke. This would be one of my life's biggest impact. My Dear Lord,please protect my family and my maid. I hope that those who read this will pray for my family and my maid. God Bless.

It really hurts alot seeing a loved one leave.

My precious family.

Random Survey from Keeyong. Lawls.

2008-09-06T13:44:00.002+08:00

Has someone close to you died of a murder?
Nope.

Who are you more like, Your mom or your dad?
Both I guess.

Is your favorite number three, five, or twelve?
12 ba.

Have you kissed a random person for money?
Rofl. NO.

Do you chew gum like a cow?
No way.

Do you have a crush on more than one person?
Yeah. =P

Is it okay to like someone else when you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
Nope. Unless step 2 boats.

Did you watch elmo as a child?
Yeah.

What about bear in the big blue house?
Yeah. Never missed one episode of it.

Do you tell your mom/dad everything?
Nope. I hardly tell them anything.

Are you sexually active?
Hmmm.. For now,No. In the future.... Maybe? =X

What do you like more, Fruits or Veggies?
FRUITS~!!! :D

Do you know anyone who doesn’t eat meat?
YES! MY CHINESE TEACHER! :X

When you throw up do you cry?
Nope.

Do you find it funny when someone snores?
Nope. I myself also snore when I sleep. :X

What’s your most embarrassing moment recently?
Hmm.. My FIRST performance on stage at City Harvest Church and it totally got screwed. >:(

Define the word fuck, but it can’t have anything to do with a cuss word or sex.
A word commonly ~~abused~~ USED by some people when something wrong happens.

Who do you talk to the most about your problems?
My gan meimei. :X

Are you single? If so, who do you like flirting with?

Single - YES.
Enjoy Flirting With- NO ONE. >:)

Out of Pizzahut, Tacobell, Or Subway. Which one do you love the most?
Subway~! EAT FRESH~! But kinda ex. :S

Were you born in Florida?
Naoway~! xD

If not, Where were you born?
S-I-N-G-A-P-O-R-E! :DD

What’s your favorite word? It can’t be normal!
OHHHHHHHHHhhHH REALLY!?!?!?!? :DD
*Hi5 Keeyong! ;D*

Are you a myspace whore?
If you asked myspace user,i would say yes. You asked myspace whore, Hell No.

Do you have a stickam, or a webcam too?
Webcam. :)
WTF is a stickam? O.o

Do you have a vagina or a penis, maybe even both?
WAT THE FUCK. BOTH? Damn hell NO! I've got a penis.

My name is Stephanie, What’s yours?
Kelvin.

Have you ever played hopscotch?
Once or twice.. Maybe alot of times. =X

Do you have aim?
Nope. I have MSN only :D

What’s your favorite color out of these five? Green, Yellow, Blue, Pink, Or purple?
Purple~! x3

My fingers are tired, did you like this survey?
Hahas. I love to have more! :)

Random.

2008-08-16T02:22:00.002+08:00

Sigh. No mood to say anything though. What is history was the past and it's gone. If it can't be retrieved back, it's lost forever. Hmmm.. Random post.

Random Post.

2008-08-08T20:57:00.002+08:00

Hmmm,today.. Long day.. Connect Singapore. Failed. Hmmm.. Nothing much to say though. Hahas. Did the "Kallang Wave" and everyone went crazy! hahas. Had fun though but ended up everything failed. Lols. Hmmm..

Well, my birthday was just another normal day. Hahas. Thanks to all those who wished me ! =D

Love ya'll! =D

Good luck to everyone on their Prelim's! =D

Full Time Student ; Full Time Raver ♥

2008-07-23T19:17:00.006+08:00

Sigh.. So many things. Studies. 39 MORE days to 'N' levels exams.. Hope to really pass 3 or MORE subjects and get 10 points and ~~above~~ below. I've decided to go for my course that my parent's have physco-ed me into. Nursing.

But some how I kinda like that course. Now I'm gonna pursue my dreams and study hard for it. Plan to get into Nanyang Poly (NYP) for the nursing course and hope to be able to get into sec 5 and DO WELL for 'O' Levels as it ain't any ball catching game. Catch no ball. Fuck it.

Just hope things will turn out better.

Anyways,here is a dedication to all Hazard Minors(HM) member. Enjoy. Sorry if your picture is not in. Either cannot get it or forgot. Sorry. =X

Moving On.

2008-07-18T21:05:00.003+08:00

Just came back from burying my hamster which died this morning. I believe she died around 2-4am while i was sleeping. Early morning seeing my hamster laying there dead stunned and shocked me. I wanted to bring her to the vet today but it was too late. She had moved on and left. I cried deep in my heart while faking a smile to cover it. Fuck it. When i carried her up in my palm's. The whole body was stiff and her eyes were 3/4 closed with her last tear in her eyes. I placed her back to her bed and left for school.

I cried deep in my heart while on my way to school. Seeing her dead like that makes me so empty. It was so unexpected for it to leave just like that. I spent the last moments with her yesterday on my desk here and watched her trying to pull though. But she failed to do so. My heart sank deep down into the bottomless pit. What happened cannot be reversed. Even with a time lock. Things won't be better nor worst when time just locks there. Everything is moving forward. No rewind nor pause nor stop but just a Play button.

While burying her,i saw my little brother cried. I felt bad deep in me. The price of death is so heavy. Making an impact to those around me.

I told my lil` brother, "Everything have to move on. Cheer up. She has been with us and we were happy. Now she is gone, just pray and everything will be fine. Burying her wasn't a heart fulfilling job but a painful one. In memories of her will forever be in us."

I'll never forget that very spot where I buried her. MY OWN ADORABLE HAMSTER! ="|

I know it's weird of me to write down about her. I'm just expressing of what I loved the most.

Life's like this. I guess.

2008-07-15T19:30:00.002+08:00

Right.. Have not been blogging since the last time.. Hmmmm,so school has been alright for me but it does get me cranky on the inside. I've been trying to find out what made me "not myself". So it came to a conclusion that my attitude sucks and more which I'm not gonna say as it's personal.

Moments of life passes as time does not stand still. I missed the happy times I had. But now I'm still living a life full or LIES. Lies I had in my life is vanishing as it was time for me to face reality. Living a world of denial will not bring me anywhere but hell. Blind walking with lies covering my eyes and coming out from my mouth. But faith has stripped it away from my eyes and stopped the process of my lying over and over. I'm glad that faith has done it for me but I have to do my part too. Not just relying on faith itself. If I don't help myself,who will?

Trying to make it up to someone is not easy but it takes time. Time heals the wounds but some wounds aren't meant for time to do so. Sigh.

Well,I have to get back to do my homework. Will blog again soon.

'Short' Random Post.

2008-06-25T21:58:00.002+08:00

Right,I'll post a 'short' and random post...

Hmmm,today isn't a great day for me. I went back to my emo self again. Urgh. I really miss you so much. If you detest me,tell me and I'll go away. I'm also a human and I understand the meaning of GO AWAY.

My God sis said that I might be suffering from depression. I have no idea. I may look happy and cheeky on the outside. But inside of me,I'm a messed up person. To me,I have this feeling of the WHOLE WORLD is against me. I know I'm not perfect but it's the FACT. I may not be good looking or rich,but I have a good heart and soul.

Well,in school I'm not my usual self. I just act the way I'm not supposed to be to cover up what is really in me. Yeah,to everyone it's bullcrap or lies but it is what reality is.

Stress levels of my GCE 'N' Levels,my maple private server maintenance and tuition is killing me. Every moment of it makes me insane in me.

I do not have the rights to console people as I myself is getting out of control. I told my friend that 'Time will heal' but I myself could not even apply it to myself. I'm such a useless and pathetic person. DAMN IT!

I'm changing the way I speak and the way I react to situations for the better but till now no avail. Why? Coz time hasn't riped yet. Blah blah blah. Shit talks.

Anyways,this is just for now. I hope tomorrow would be a BETTER day.

Good night.

Panda™

I finally remebered it.

2008-06-24T12:03:00.003+08:00

HEY~!! I FINALLY REMEMBERED MY BlOGS PASSWORD WHEN LISTENING TO A SONG..Hehe.. Was listening to an old song "Sexy Naughty Bitchy Me - Tata Young" Lols. Then i keep thinking of the word sexy.. Then i remembered my password. Hoho. Right,let me get back to my blog.

So today wasn't a fruitful day. I got sent home coz of my hair. Sigh. A little bit of hair colour dye also want to make a fuss out of it. Nvm lo. Go home then go home lo.

Then I come back,sian sian nothing to do. Dota for 2 match and then now I going to dye my hair back to black. Hmmm..

Going back to school at 2+ for my art 'N' levels painting. Painted 1/4 of it alr. Still got long way to go nehh~

Alright,will post more soon~!

Take care.
I'll be waiting for you. ♥

Kelvin aka Panda (:

Exams almost over. -____-""

2008-05-07T18:14:00.003+08:00

Right exams almost over BUT the first week of holidays still have to go back to school for PRELIMS! SCREW IT! Prelims = Even more stress.. Sigh..

After that i can go on a extreme make over.. :X
Lols.. I'll look totally different from schooling and holidays.. Hehe.. Will post a before and after picture.. XD

I still owe Jency a dedication video.. Lawls. Will edit the video when I grab my free time. :X

I miss spending time with all my classmates on an outing. Sigh. If only we 4n1 and 4n2 can gather tgt and go on an outing.. Too bad as it is a wishful thinking. >.>

Right.. New Blog skin~ Weeeeee~ Thanks Jocelyn~! (:

Good Luck on your exams to those who are taking it now,sooner or later. x)

Hmm..I have to get back to my tuition hw and my Art work.. Friday Art paper.. No joke to fool around with. Hahahs..

Have a Nice Day.

Peace.

Stressed || Desserts [CECILIA,Thanks for that! =) ]

Stressed, Emotional, Tears.

2008-05-06T17:37:00.002+08:00

Sigh.. Exam period + tuition stress = Very stress..

Dunno wad to do with myself.. Emotional? I've stopped slitting my wrist already. Just listen to Silverstein and go crazy? Hmm..

EVERYTHING IS LIFE IS SO FUCKED UP.

F@#K YOU!

2008-04-30T20:10:00.002+08:00

I HATE YOU!! WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME?! I KNOW I'M NO WHERE BETTER THAN YOU BUT YOU DONT HAVE TO HURT ME LIKE THAT!! I F@#KING HATE YOU TO THE CORE! IT WAS ALL BECOZ OF YOU THAT I WENT CRAZY!! ALL THAT LINES THAT WENT THRU..IT WASNT BECOZ OF LOVE.. IT WAS BECOZ OF YOU!! YOU MADE ME DO THIS!!

I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hatred.

2008-04-25T17:26:00.000+08:00

I hate myself.

Hmm.. Another Monday..?

2008-04-21T18:19:00.002+08:00

Right... Its just another Monday.. Next week is already the Mid Year Exams.. Sheese.. Still not in the mood to study..? I'm a goner.. Hope I WILL really change to study mood.. Sigh..

Alright,today after sch stayed back and did my CME projet which was due today.. So Ms Koh gave me a 1 days grace but with some term's and conditions.. =S

Then after that the F&N Girls and Calvin came.. We had to test their food for their test.. Lols.. Roselyn's SPONGEcake was "Spongy" but it taste great! Hahas.. I took pictures of the food alr but lazy to post the pics..
Calvin's black omelet.. Lols.. Tasted nice though.. Xiao Yan's cheese muffin~ Mmm~ Hehe.. Jane's Apple muffin~ (it was kinda hard though) Bella's Lemon marcoroni..? Seems nice~ Hehe.. I will post the pic asap =X

Alright.. I'm off for now. Take care everyone~!

Good Luck on ur Mid year exams~ =)
God Bless.

More sick. Sigh.

2008-04-15T20:47:00.000+08:00

Sigh.. Today got more sick.. Now worse.. Feel like gonna die.. Wanna go home from shop,mum make noise.. I stay at shop mum also make noise.. Sigh.. Hope to recover from this sickness asap..

God Bless.

The State Of Mind.

2008-04-14T20:16:00.000+08:00

Sigh.. Exams.. Studies.. Stress.. Health.. Time.. Money..

So many things.. Cannot handle.. Break down sooner or later..

2008-04-09T19:21:00.004+08:00

Alright.. Today will be my last day of wrist slitting.. I've found another way to curb my bad habits and control my emotions properly..

Sorry Kimmy about Edbert.. His kinda of a dick when his with me. =X

Hmm... Well,i've tried shouting out my problems and it works.. I tried today at school.. At the soccer field.. I shouted with all my breath.. AHHHHH!!!!
And i kinda felt better.. Another way was to sing my emotions out.. if i feel sad,i will sing a sad song to turn it around.. If im angry,i will shout my lungs out.Hahas..

Okays,so mid year exam is like around the corner and im so not prepared.. Sigh.. I've gotta work harder man! Hope everyone can support me as this support will be my pillar of strength.. If it fall's,i might fall..

Okay Andy! I'm gonna take that bet! But how to prove to you that I didnt cut on the following days?? :S
Hahas..

This is my wrist today..

Good Luck to everyone for their 'O' & 'N' Levels! (:

Something which i'm learning to sing.. =P

Unusual me today.

2008-04-07T20:26:00.002+08:00

Sigh.. Today is not my day.. After bio lesson was SS and SS was free period.. So we went to library instead.. Something came over me.. I suddenly become so emotional.. I got angry and hated everything i see.. Then i just went off to the toilet and slit my wrist.. What made me slit my wrist?? Lot's of things went thru my mind.. I can feel that i was gonna die in that cubical.. I had this evil smirk on my face and I kinda "enjoyed" that feeling and as though I've given up and willing to die.. Then my blood just gushed out and the floor was bloody.. Then i felt numb and weak.. Then suddenly the door had a bang and i woke up.. I cleared the blood on my wrist and went out.. Everyone stared at me.. Blood was obvious as it was everywhere.. Washed my wrist and went back to library.. Dragged a chair and faced the wall.. I hugged on my bag and i stared at the wall.. Without any feelings or anything.. Tears rolled down my eyes.. Everyone was asking me.. What happened?? I just shook my head.. All I wanted at that moment was peace and some time alone..

I hated myself at that moment.. I wanna suicide and just end everything.. So peaceful.. So carefree.. Everything... G-O-N-E!

All those happenings.. I only had one person in my mind.. No other person and it's that someone whom I willing to sacrifice myself for.. Who is it?? For me to know for you to find out.

I have been trying to change my cutting habits.. It has been lesser and lesser since last year. I has been my cutting addiction as I can release the pain in my heart.. I can See,Feel and Touch my pain on my wrist.. So that the torment in my heart will be eased.. It's a silly thing to do but I cannot control my emotions well.. I'm sorry..

Counseling sessions? I don't know.. I may not open up to the counselors.. Just keep my pain,hatred,anger and sorrow in my heart.. Not many people can open my heart.. You may choose to help or to leave me there to do.. It's your choice.. And my choice to control it..

Reason for self-mutilation,Relieve the pain in my heart.(It's silly I know.)

Im so sick.

2008-04-06T16:46:00.006+08:00

Bleh.. Nowadays weather so hot.. So many things happen to me.. Right now i feel so sick.. Feel like wanna puke,body temperature is so burning hot.. The only thing in my mind now is you.. I was sleeping just now and i dreamt about my death.. My life regrets and happiness.. Everything.. Then i dreamt about you.. Your the last person who i wanted to see before i died but you were not there..

Then i just past away.. Everything is gone.. The only thing i see was just light..

I feel so lonely,nobody was there for me.. I curled up and just faded away.. Then,everything is history.. The final words i wanna say is I love you and all my wrong doings that i have done to let you down was regretted..

Im just typing all these to express what im going through now.. I got this feeling that something may happen soon.. What is it? I don't know and I hope it will not get the better of me..

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Anger and Hatred are getting over me.. All those things that i see,i get angry and hated it for no reason.. Slitted my wrist to release my pain in my heart.. All those things which are stacking over me..All that weight..All that pressure.. It may just fall on me and squash you flat down to the ground.. What's left was nothing.. The more lines i slit on my wrist,the more pressure it gets over me.. My definition of death is like this.. I will get stacked over and squashed down to the ground and just fade away.. No one knows how I died except God.

2008-03-30T20:26:00.003+08:00

Right.. I was busy nowadays and alot of things happened.. Got a new bunk bed which is super great as it saved lots of space in my room ^^ hahas.. i'll post more soon.. Gtg.. Have to help close shop.. =x

2008-03-21T09:30:00.001+08:00

Oh ya.. I saw this pharse from Eric's blog and its really meaningful.. I myself wanna be that too..

We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge. People make mistakes.
We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.
Pause and ponder. Think before you act. Be patient. Forgive & forget. Love one and all.
If you judge people, you have no time to love them. - Mother Teresa

Make up post for the past few daes~

2008-03-21T08:57:00.002+08:00

Alright.. Wednesday was Sports Day and the weather was "G-R-E-A-T"! It rained and rained.. Then had to postpone it till further noticed.. Was gonna rock the stadium and peepz with our Integrity cheer leading! Too bad that it had to be postponed.. At least still can practice summore.. Practice Makes Perfect! >.<
Then after the turn down.. Went back home.. But along the way back.. Many things happened to my bro's.. Sigh.. Lots of quarreling.. Hope this would end..

And of coz! THANK YOU NAOMI FOR THE PRESENT YOU GAVE ME !! IT MAY BE SMALL BUT IT'S NOT THE TYPE OF PRESENT THAT MATTERS!IT'S WHAT COMES FROM YOUR HEART! (: THANK YOU SO MUCH~!!!! (: I will always keep it with me ^.^

Okays.. Went back home and didnt much.. Juz stoned and went down to parents shop to help out.. Now i just noticed.. I enjoy studying now.. Hahas..

I really miss my frens who have gone overseas,transfer to other schools and even left school.. Sigh.. Hope to be able to meet you again.. Love ya! (:

Hmm.. Now really no mood to post on.. Just wanna say that Good Luck and All The Best to everyone who are taking 'O','N' and 'A' Levels!! (:

I still love you even when your not there.. You will always have a place deep in my heart.. If loving you is a crime, Then I'm guilty.. Hope to be able to say I LOVE YOU face to face one day..

God Bless and have A JOLLY GOOD FRIDAY! (:

March 18.

2008-03-18T20:02:00.003+08:00

Sigh.. Not really a good day for me today.. Now my head is spinning and in a bad mood.. Right.. Hope i can find time for studies and not just play and play and play.. Napfa test is just next Friday.. Wat the heck?? Today PE had to train for 2.4.. Didnt really do well but hope to be able to pass my 2.4..

Sigh.. Really nth much to post.. I'm just stoning and thinking about her.. Sigh.. I doubt she will even like me.. I will just cherish what i have and wait for time to give me what i have been waiting for..

I still love you..

March the 12th, Holiday @_@""

2008-03-12T22:30:00.002+08:00

Okays.. So today is the 12th of March.. Right.. What am i supposed to do? Lemme list it out..

1)Holiday Homework
2)Tuition Homework [ I have like 14 sets to clear and it dues tomorrow! DAMN! X_X ]
3)Collection Of More Money for Job Week
4)Cleaning Up My Extremely Messy Room which looks like a tornado just went by
5)Get my needed stuff for school
6)Supposed to attend my final session of night course @ AMK ITE..Forgot to go as I was on holiday mood and was stoning at Bugis. >.<
7)Fix me wardrobe sliding doors.

Sigh.. Hope to be able to clear it.. :S

Anyways,my younger bro wanna use the comp.. So i just stop here.. >.>

I will update more when i'm free.. (:

Peace everyone.

Quick night post..

2008-03-03T22:57:00.003+08:00

Okok.. Online awhile to do a quick post.. >.<

Today @ sch had a session with Mr.Goh.. Why? For my wrong doings lor.. Sigh.. Fine of $30 and record.. That sucks..

Okay.. Hmm.. After school stayed back for Maths test.. Totally blew it.. Estimated to get around 7/25 ... Sigh.. So many qns on bearings and that sine cosine thingy.. Blehh..

Then after that went for AVA IC meeting.. Plan about this wed's de plan.. Zomg.. We are going to Bishan Home For The Elderly on wed.. Means that the sec 3's and some sec4's will be taking over.. Good Luck wor~! X)

Then had to rush back to my parents shop to collect my Bag for my night lessons @ AMK ITE.. Then took Bus 159 there and reached there like nearly 7 and had a quick dinner there.. After that went to class and they started like 6.45.. I was like,"Gosh..They started so early.. =.= "

Okays nvm.. Today learned about internet security and stuffs.. Know got more knowledge bout it.. Hehe.. Just left with 1 more week and the course is over.. How time flies.. Its so fast.. I sure had fun and made lots of friends aged 17-40++ Hehe.. All the best guys and gals! :)

Then came back and my parents told me there were some leftover food from dinner.. Okays.. So i went to eat abit and back here.. And sadly i misplaced my retainers somewhere and could not find it.. I really really need it.. ='( My molar hurts.. Oww.. Hope i can find it back.. Sobbs..

I really sometime have to pity on my brothers.. They have to like share the same bed because of the aircon.. Sigh.. I really feel like sacrificing myself for them so they can have a better life.. Sigh.. Now really have to go reflect on myself.. Ciao~

God Bless.

Shadow Lurking Angel™

Peace~

Tuesday @.@

2008-02-26T18:28:00.003+08:00

Sigh.. Today decided to wear back my retainers.. Sigh.. Why? Coz my teeth are falling out.. Had to wear them to pull them back.. Like what Eric said,bear with the pain awhile now and enjoy great teeth in the future.. Haha.. Yeah,now suffer abit nvm..

Now my teeth are so itchy and pain.. It's like so wrong to eat with these.. Bite into anything and oww.. Pain.. Most jia lat is the bottom part of the mouth.. Owww... Bear with it Kel~!!! X(
And worst comes to worst,i think my retainers are like slanted.. Not placed straight when it is..

Right.. So today.. Hmm.. English period did Group work on Advantages and Disadvantages of Internet.. Lols.. Had fun and I was the best presenter! XD Wahaha.. Nth much really.. >.>

Then PE period.. Damn pissed off.. I ran around the court like nobodies business and no one even passes me the ball.. Wth? I stopped halfway and changed back to Uniform.. They asked me,"Why stop playing? Join back in la.."

I was like,"Why should i waste my energy over it when i run around like an idiot?"

So i went off to the canteen and bought a new penknife which cost me 20cents which is like so cheap and good.. What use? You should know..

Right.. Chinese period.. So emo.. Juz kept quiet and dao everyone.. Ms Tew ask me," What happen to you? Face so sour.."
So i was like shaking my head and looked away..

Great,I left my orange file under my desk.. No wonder my bag was so light..

Went for recess after that,then went off the Maths..

So sian.. Left my worksheet on Bearings in my file which is at Ms Tew's homeroom and Sing Fong's paper was like at home.. Only we didn't bring! DAMN! XD
At least today something new happened.. Got a new teacher was like in our class and she is like sitting behind us.. Her name was Ms Kiew.. I guess.. She was like so serious.. o.O

Listen in class halfway then my head dropped on the table.. Feel asleep and drolled all over my hand.. Eww.. Faster took the tissue and wiped it off.. Yuck.. >.<
Then listen awhile, RING~
Go to Art period.. Thinking, "Sian la.. Sure get lecture from Mr Ang.. Didn't complete my half drawn art piece.." Then at class faster chiong.. Heng heng he didn't call and give me a lecture.. >.< Phew~!

Then Sammi was like so fast.. Go and start on her "N" level Art process work.. Page 1,introduction..
She designed it so nice lor.. Hahas..Then Naomi's Pegasus was so nice~!!! Blue Pegasus with Shiny Yellow Wings and An Elegant Orange Tail~ So nice~~ ~.~

So Mr Ang sorta give all of us pass for our Mid year Art.. Hehe.. Then completed my drawing.. I love it so much~ Now muz go into my worst part.. Shading... >:(

Have to like shade and tone, shade and tone.. Blehh.. Then follow Marcel go toilet.. After that go back class and waited for another 10 mins and RING~~! Time to go home~
I keep on forgetting to bring the drum stick for Aaron.. >.<

So tomorrow is gonna be a long day.. Have to wear tie! Humph! Makes me look neck less.. >.>

Tmr shuffle training for Sports Day~ Hope can master the routine and rock Sports Day~! XD

YEAH~!! ROCK ON DUDES!! :)

For you.

2008-02-22T21:30:00.004+08:00

Right.. Blogger rolled back or did i roll back?? I rmb posting something yesterday.. Nvm.. I shall do it again..

Here is something which i wrote to my special someone.. Who is that special someone? It will not be revealed.. Guess it.. ;)

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For once in my life,I liked this someone and I never stopped thinking about her.. Till now,she is still in my heart and still thinking about her.. Everytime I see her,I would smile broadly. I always kept it a secret.I always wanted to woo her and ask her out,but it was not possible. She does not even know me at all! I wanted to share this secret of mine to my best friend and what is a secret when someone knows it right? So i kinda let the cat out of the bag. News sure spread fast when you tell someone whom you trust the most.

So she know about me having a crush on her.She went to find out who this annoymons admirer was.Then she saw me. She was expecting some handsome or cute guy but she saw a below averge guy who does not have looks. So she avoids me everytime. Whenever i pass by her,I smile to her but she did not notice it.
Yesterday was Valentine's Day,it was the saddest day for me. it was an obvious thing that many people are wooing her. Right so I'm not the only guy who likes her right? Flowers and gifts were obvious to be given to her. I tasted the bitter tang of disappointment as I failed to brought the gift to her and me regretting for not doing so. Then I asked myself, "Is it time to let things go?"

Now, I would just hide in one corner and admire her. I do not want to see the person whom i liked the most hurt. Maybe I could just be a guardian angel from the shadows? Who knows..?

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Right.. Sounds corny or so.. I hope this special someone of mine would lead a happy life.. I love you deep from my heart but I will not want to see you hurt as I will do anything for the person I love to most. May God Bless you and your loved ones..

I won't be able to see you soon as time flies fast.. I might be gone by the time I could even confess to you..

Good Night.

Shadow lurking Angel™

Today.. Zzz..

2008-02-20T20:11:00.002+08:00

Hey there....

Thanks Ken for the horoscope.. :] Really appreciate it! :]

LEO - The Lion

Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.

[Wow.. o.O]

So many things happened to me lately.. I wrote an essay about HER.. When i was writing it,tears rolled down my eyes.. It may sound corny or stupid but its true.. Sorry if you doubt it coz i have nothing to say bout it..

Sigh.. What Done Is Done.Let It Go And It Wont Hurt So Much.I Wished I Can. Sigh..

All the best to everyone for their O lvls and N lvls! ;)

So Emo nowdays..Why?

2008-02-17T22:07:00.000+08:00

Hi there....

Busy Busy Busy..

2008-01-11T17:57:00.000+08:00

Sigh.. Nowadays so busy.. Now got time to update blog.. Haha.. Sorry dad and mum for that post.. I was venting out my anger.. Sorry loads~! God Bless~!

Sigh.. This year "N" levels.. No time to slack.. Must really really work hard.. Fail this im a gonner.. Sigh.. Now is the time to make my way up to the top.. No way im gonna fall back wards~!! Hope to be more disciplined and not do stupid stuffs.. >.<

Nth much to say.. Hope to be good and improve in everything~!!

Shuffle Dance Freedom FTW~!!

-SDF- ShiruKo™

S-T-R-E-S-S !

2007-12-18T03:19:00.000+08:00

Sigh.. Nowadays so stressed.. 2 weeks time,school is gonna reopen.. No more extra sleep time already.. But thanks to Eric and Quin Weng,i get to let off on Sunday.. Thanks Alot Guys! It was fun! Looking forward to X'mas..

Sigh.. So many things to worry.. Family, Money, Health, Lifestyle, studies, Attitude,the way i talk, the way i do things, the way i think..
Sigh... I'm dammned for life..

Stupid uncle of mine.. So greedy and stingy.. Not his money he want,claims that he will hold the money for him.. My ass arh.. Rather him hold his balls..

Thank you daddy for buying me the drum set.. :)
You didn't even have 2nd thoughts and just bought it for me.. I will repay you one day.. :)

Sorry Mum for making you worry on me for so much.. I may be irresponsible at times but i will change..I will change for the better.. Hope your last night fall's injury will recover fast..

Sigh.. What kind of son am i?? Don't say imma son of a bitch.. My parents are not Dogs.. So beat it..

Sometimes i feel my body is rotting.. Yeah ewww... Whatever!
Hope that i will be able to control myself from temptations..

Now looking forward to slimming down to a better health and better person!!

Kel.

A message for you.

2007-11-30T23:26:00.000+08:00

everytime i see you,i smile widely.. Every sentence you said to me,i kept it in my heart.. you made me smile ever since i met you.. i was sad inside my heart as no one likes to talk to me.. Though you may be an open person, i dont mind that.. Sorry for being so stupid when i talk to you..All my stupid actios and words that i've said,i'd take it back and not ponder in ur life..

In my life,your the first person whom made me really smile that widely.. Thank you so much Chanel ! Ur also the cutest girl i've ever met.. I thank God for having me to meet you.. Thank you,Thank God.. I don't want to burden you..I just want to support you through out ur life.. Any down falls you have, i will be there for you..I will be there to lend you my shoulder..

I know that you have someone you l0ved inside ur heart..I will not stop you from getting him.. I will be there to help you and to see you have ur happiness.. I give you my blessings for ur entinity l0ve.. God Bless you.. I may have grown feelings for you..I will keep it in my heart.. God Will always be with you.. anything sms me as i gtg as my bro wanna use the comp..

P.S , Ur the most beautiful girl i've ever seen.. Dont give up confidence and hope on urself..i will always be there for you..Sorry and Thank you.. =)

2007-11-19T22:39:00.000+08:00

You Will Die at Age 70

You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...
And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

Hope this is not true..

You Sometimes Don't Get Enough Sleep

You're often more tired than you'd like, and you're probably not getting enough quality sleep.
Sleeping a little more could make you a lot more energetic and happy.
Try having a bedtime, keep your bedroom cool, and only eat fruit before bed.

Do You Get Enough Sleep?

Oh No!

Fun @ Far East!

2007-11-19T12:25:00.000+08:00

Hey there! Yesterday i had the best day @ Far East.. Me and my crew went down to Far East to shuffle.. Had fun there.. First we went to mac for breakfast.. Then after that went to Far East and looked for the shop where we could get out Crew Hoodies done.. After we went to a spot nearby the shop.. Shuffling around with Nick's speaker..Haha.. Mega Bass Blast!! Woo HOo!! XP

Then when the shop is open.. We were the first to spam his shop.. That guy was funny and cool.. First showing him the template of the crew hoodie.. Then he say must print out the template.. Then went to the Kodak photoshop.. We used the Instant Photo print and printed the front logo.. After that rushed down to Kelvin's (another kelvin.. Not me.. XP) to do the back logo.. Spent 2 WHOLE HOURS AT HIS HOUSE OVER A LOGO!! THANKS TO NICK!! ROAR!! Keep saying "WO ZHI DAO LIAO!!" ROAR!! Then payed a total of $60 plus for the hoodie and printing.. It will be ready at this saturday.. After done le i will take a pic of it and upload it on my blog.. Haha..

Then stayed there till 5 plus.. Haha.. Took Bus 105.. Then Kelvin went down first coz he reach his house there.. lol.. Then WE TOOK THE WRONG SIDE.. WE WENT TO JURONG EAST!!! ARGH!! THEN HAVE TO TAKE A 1 HR RIDE BACK TO TPY!! Reach back shop parents lucky nvr scold me.. Haha..

At Far East,went to collect my customized cap..

This is my cap.

Here is the mask which i bought..

My Mask + Cap =

The Never Ending Pain, Regret.

2007-11-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

Regrets.. The pain that is stabbed onto ur heart.. It hurts every second.. It makes ur heart bleed.. What done is done.. They say.. Let bygones be bygones.. But i can't let it be.. Everytime i look out the window and stare blankly.. Flashbacks of regrets comes in.. Feel so sad.. The sorrow,rage,unhappiness.. It makes ur feel lousy..

Everytime i think of you.. The pain goes deeper into my heart.. Tears roll down my eyes.. I regreted losing you.. If it wasn't that one wrong move.. I would not have losed you.. I know it's too late to say it,but.. I'm sorry..

God Bless..
Good Night..

I run alone..
The Lonewolf.

R.I.P ™
KeL(Ly)™

Something to share from my life..

2007-11-09T00:49:00.001+08:00

A Video to share with everyone.. Enjoy :D

Twisted and Ruined Life..

2007-11-08T23:41:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,I did the most shameful thing ever.. Something which is MOST undisireable.. I lost my face to everyone I knew.. I feel so heart shattered for myself.. Even i myself can do the most stupid thing ever.. IM THE MOST STUPID GUY EVER!!!!! I CANT EVEN FACE MY OWN FRIENDS!! EVEN MY OWN FAMILY MEMBERS!! WHY AM I SO DUMB?!?!? WHY!?!?!

Should i say what happened?

I feel that i have no more courage to face the world.. My reputation has been ruined by my stupid acts.. What am i now?? I feel like a foul beast..

Kill me.. I have no life now.. I'm a lifeless loser now.. I'm better off dead.. Doing stupid stuff's.. Fuck me to death with a knife.. I don't care.. My life is fucked up...

Love you all my friends and family...

Peace..

Confused.

2007-09-23T11:23:00.000+08:00

Now life is so confusing.. You go the wrong way,your done for.. You take the right way,your life is straight.. Now I'm having the 3rd path.. It's a gamble.. Gambling life and death.. Not doing illegal stuffs ya? Why am i saying this? Continue reading.

This Friday is the start of the "Horrifying" End Of Year Exams.. Pass = Promote , whereby Fail = Retain! I can't bear to retain as many things will be affected.. Life is not always wonderful.. TO BE EXACT! ARGH!! Then exams are so called "stressing" to people becos they have to mug like crazy? 30% is related to mugging while 70% is stressed on failing the exams aka worrying instead of mugging for an "A".. So what about getting an "A"? Be an easy person and juz go for a "B"? If i can get at least a 50% for all my subjects,I'll be off the roof.. You'll see me go crazy over those marks.. Why? Coz I'm satisfied with i have worked for.. Not being disappointed even i have not gotten high grades..

Take Life easy and serious.. Look at R.I students... So,argh, "hardworking".. It is a Good and reknowned school but getting in a reknowed school and give you what? It's about yourself.. You plan your own future..

Bleh,Why am i saying this to you all? If you get the picture, GOOD! If not,nevermind.. Things will always seem complicated to you if you don't dig it.. Peace Out.

Life is easy and serious when you think properly.

KeL™

Should not have let y0u g0..

2007-09-20T16:06:00.000+08:00

I should not have let you go.. Now i regretted for doing it.. Now when i think of you and the past when we had fun together.. All the things we did together.. Every single memory that you left behind.. Tears rolled down my eyes when those memories flashback.. I'm sorry that i let you go and wasnt there for you.. Having my lesson learned.. Now letting time to heal the wounds.. Wounds of a heart with many deep cuts.. I'm sorry that i let you go.. The fault is mine.. Forgive me and can we be friends?

I'M SORRY!!

Recent Happenings.

2007-09-16T13:13:00.000+08:00

Heyy~! Exams are juz 12 more days away.. Boring huh? Wish everyone in success in their exams! Haha.. Now study hard, after exam play hard! Now suffer is worth while.. If now you aren't serious,dun regret retaining or demoted to a lousy class.. Now really muz study hard le.. Alright cut this crap..

For this whole week,many things happened..

Yesterday was Jian Bao's bdae.. HAPPY BDAE!! :D
Ytd suppose to go celebrate with him and others but last min parents dun let me go! BLEH~!! Then quarreled with my mum then she went nuts.. Dun wana further explain.. Then stayed @ my parents shop till 7pm++.. After that went home to change and went to tpy central to walk around. After that went to CRC to dota.. DotA-ed with SF on bnet.. Haha.. Stupid Malaysia game room host's.. XP

After that went back to my parents shop to help till closing.. Boring? Used to it already.. Then went to Balestier to eat Bat Kut Teh.. Haha.. Then went home then saw our 2 regular custormers.. They juz now bought 2 packs of chips and 10 packets of candles.. They were playing candles there.. It was nice! The formation.. Haha.. Then went home.. And slept.. ZzZzZzzz...

The whackiest Saturday!

2007-08-19T12:03:00.000+08:00

Hey! Yesterday i had the most fun saturday ever! Me,QW,Eric and Ris met up @ orchard mrt.. QW was late for a few mins.. Nvm! Haha.. Then we went off to this shop.. I cant really rmb the name of it.. If im not wrong,it shud be TopShop Top____ .. STM! :X

Then i saw so many clothes which was so damn cool but expensive! Thinking of saving $$ to buy a Hoodie from there..Then slowly save $ again to buy phats.. Well, after that we headed off to the movies.. We wanted to buy the 3.30 slot but it was sold out! Damn! So we had to buy the 5.05 slot.. we went to More Than Words to buy a bdae gift for Roselyn.. It was her bdae ytd! Haha.. We picked a Happy Bdae card and a pink penguin who can say " I love you " when squeezed.. Then So we went to eat but Eric was short of cash.. So he went to withdraw money.. Then he asked,withdraw how much? we said, " Withdraw $100 la.. Its peanuts to you what.. Haha.." Then he withdrew $40 and then we went to eat @ the nearby food court.. QW ordered Duck Rice , I ordered a bowl of Katsu Don , Eric ordered the usual, Beef steak , and Ris ordered Chicken cutlet.. Lawls.. After done eating, we head off the to nearby arcade to play.. I was looking for Drum Mania or Percussion Freaks but they don't even have it! Damn it! Then i went to exchange coins.. The counter lady tried to scam my ass off.. I gave her $10 and i said " Gimme 4 tokens please.." Then when i counted the money over and over, she gave me back $2 only! 1 token cost 50 cents and she bloody hell gave me back $2.. I asked her, " Eh,I gave you $10 you gimme back $2 change ah? What you trying to do sia? BLuff people money ah? " She said," Eh boy,you give me $5 you know?! " I shouted hack " REALLY AH?! $5 AH!? MY FRIEND HERE SAW ME GIVING YOU $10 EH~!! YOU DUN COME SCAM ME AH! " She said she will count the money and see if its correct.. I really @ that time wanted to give her a tight slap.. So we played the Arm wrestling game and topped first for the strength test.. We laughed like never before! Then We played the soccer thingy.. You kick the ball below and the game will also kick the ball in the direction u face.. After that, it was just nice 5 mins to movie time.. WE rushed off to the theater and bought popcorn and we went in,it was jsut nice! The movie started.. We had loads of fun and luaghter.. Why? Coz we watched Rush Hour 3! It was packed with extream fun and Its worth watching! I would give it a 5 star rating! After watching it, we went back to braddel to roselyns birthday BBQ party.. We said hi and happy birthday and then we went over to marcel's place to get Bitter,sparkling green tea.. KNow what is it? Duno? Nvm.. Guess it urself.. We skated with MArcels brothers board.. Had fun skating.. (To Be Continued.. Gtg, @ last min... :S

Past Few Days Happenings.

2007-08-09T15:47:00.000+08:00

Heys,it has been awhile since i last updated..

6 Aug, Monday, My birthday.. Only 4 people remembered my birthday.. Didnt even celebrate my bdae.. Juz treated it like a normal day.. Only Ken and ishmaris went to play LAN with me @ tpy crc.. Well, Yesterday my parents and brothers went to Swensens to have our dinner.. Thank you dad and mom and bro's for rmbing my bdae.. (:

After dinner we head back home.. Had a smile on my face when i slept.. I still liked last year, my friends,sworn brothers and classmates would remember my birthday and celebrate with me.. But time has changed it.. Thank you guys and gals who remembered my bdae!

Felt sad bcoz of some stuffs.. Felt moody on that day.. My wrist was so beautiful.. :S

Chinese Culture Course.

Had fun painting the mask.. Haha.. Was late for class but class have not started yet! Phew! But When i confronted the teacher,everyone was laughing.. You know why? Don't wish to say it out.. When class started, we took the paint and coloured our mask.. Instead of colouring the mask,i coloured the newspaper and It was so yellowish.. Jian Bao rested his arm on the newspaper and his arm kenna the yellow paint.. Haha.. He went bonkers! Haha! Sorry JB,at least we had fun! Haha.. After Class, we took a photo together with our mask on.. (Will post photo when free. :X)

TODAY!!

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!! HAPPY BDAE SINGAPORE!! Haha.. It's Singapore's 42th bdae! Wow! 42 years old of independence... Wooo~ Haha.. Gonna go out with Brandon,Justin,Junde and of coz Alvin! Haha.. Gonna meet @ Dhoby Ghaut and go somewhere to watch the fireworks.. Yay!! Haha.. Will post some photos when i come back! Haha..

Wishing everyone to have fun today! Happy National Day!

God Bless!

KeL™

Life is Sweet and Sour.

2007-07-26T10:58:00.000+08:00

Life can be sweet and sour.. It can be sweet if you smile and look @ the bright side.. But sour when bad things happen.. Bottling things up inside our heart will just enraging the sadness and anger in it.. Caught a flu and have been coughing non stop.. Well,what to do? SMile! Haha.. Happyness is always good.. Smiling always works.. But not in bad sitiuations..

Laughter is also a good medicine to sourness..
Love is always there. Love from parents,God,Friends! Haha..

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I would like to meet new friends.. Get to know more people.. Is it possible that 3E's and 3N's go on and outing together to bond? Haha.. Juz asking if anyone is intersted?

Now or never.

2007-07-08T21:48:00.001+08:00

Hey everyone.. Something to say before anything happens to me.. Nowadays i'm not in a pink of health.. So to be straight forward,im gonna break down sooner or later.. I want to say thank you for my frens that has been with me.. Sorry for the things i have done wrong to you.. If you still b ear grudges with me,let it out and forget about the bad stuffs that i've done.. Hope that u'll rmb me when im gone.. It's not about suicide but my body braking down.. I'm not seeking any attention from anyone.. Just want to say last words to everyone b4 it's too late.. Love ya all and God bless you & ur family..

Peace Out.

KeL™

sway sway weekend :S

2007-07-01T10:57:00.000+08:00

Haiiz..Now @ thompson West United FC LAN Shop.. Coz @ home moniter siao siao...Now i blog le den go play.. ^^

On Friday..Injured my ankle coz failed to jump over the fence.. Then yesterday Saturday,night time go play basketball got silat cannot play..Then when going back that tym fell down thanks to the vines on the grass..Then injured my thumb... Bleh..Bo pian la.. Juz have to get used to it.. well..I'll blog more next tym..Cya! :)

BLAST THE PHONE AH!!!

2007-06-27T20:27:00.001+08:00

Blehh...My house phone spoil~!!! Cannot make calls..DAMMIT!! WANNA MAKE A CALL ALSO CANNOT!! DAMN DU LAN AH!! YESTERDAY CAN CALL..TODAY CANNOT!! WHAT HAPPEN SIA! INTERNET KI SIAO , HOUSE PHONE CANNOT CALL..WHAT NEXT? TV BLOW UP?? ARGH!! NVM!!!! I READ BOOKS INSTEAD.. STUPID PHONE AND INTERNET!! GEN WO ZUO DUI!! WO PEI!!!! I MAKE SURE I REPAIR THE PHONE AND SCREW THE INTERNET AH!!! BLEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Skool reopen :)

2007-06-25T20:45:00.000+08:00

Oye Vye! How is the 1st day of skool lyk? Mine is alright and fun! :) So many people changed their looks over the holidays! Haha..
Now the new semester,new time table,new class splitting,new teachers and more homework to come! Now i have 2 more months before end of year exam comes! So is like,2 months to stress and mug like never before! So everyone! Study hard and enjoy after the exams! Good Luck! :)

Then after school,stayed back at school for AVA IC meeting.. Then me,mail,ris and pamela was present..So bo pian.. Cannot discuss..So pamela went home first..Since she was complaining so much.. Complain Queen! >:P

Me,mail & ris went to AMK to buy my shoes and then we went to Old Change Kee buy curry puff and charge up..Then we go the huge space at AMK Hub to do out discussion.. But guess what? Is 40% discussion,60% LOLing our asses off.. Thanks to ris and mail.. Ismail - Boy nonok~ Den ris - Chee bye la! Fuck la! One more time i really go back home ah! Den we laugh and laugh and laugh.. Den about to leave,Security guard come say,eh boys..Dun sit here..Go sit other place.. i reply back saying :oh no nid..We going alr.." :) Then we went to toilet and outside toilet and took some pictures..Here is what we did.. >.>

Caution Wet Floor!

emo ismail O.o

Don't Fall Guys! The Floor is wet! :P

Check This out! XP

Ris so itchy hand..

Now ris BOTH hands Itchy!

What You Looking At??

Oi Dun Push Larh!!

TWIST! Butt's ON! XD

ToDaYs PoSt..

2007-06-24T13:14:00.000+08:00

Sigh.. I've missed out so much fun during the holidays.. Now is back to school and study study study! Must pull up my socks for the last 2 terms left this year..If not i might retain in sec 3..Sigh Sigh.. There are so many regrets i have for this year.. Hope that i will not commit the same mistakes and get my ass into trouble again..

Now is the time to put back the sad past and look forward.. It's best not to dwell on the sad things.. Do what is right and the choice is always yours to make.. So now i will buck up and bop to the top! :)

And thank you Joel for helping me to format my blog! Thanks alot and lot's of love! :)

Holidays are soon to be over!

2007-06-22T11:06:00.000+08:00

Sigh..3 more days before the holidays ends..What a pity..One month sure flies fast.. Soon we will be back in school.. I don't really see what is a bad point in going school but yes,homework,projects,etc etc.. Now i hope that by end of year i can get passing grades and not retain in sec 3.. Don't wanna retain as it will cause a burden to my parents.. Seriously,I don't even know why I have been failing my subs.. Well,just hope that I will pass all my subjects and promote to sec 4..

Well,besides that..What about this June holiday homework? Yeap,i didn't touch my holiday homework.. I'm so gonna be dead when school reopens when the teachers say," Hand in your holidays homework." Then 80% of the class never do.. What to do?

Feel like going wild to release all my restless energy that is causing me to go crazy over going back to school..

Well,thats all for my post today..Hope to continue to post everyday..

All the best!

KeL™

Le Parkour.

2007-06-22T11:04:00.001+08:00

Hey hey,this is a video that shows the true fact of Parkour! Check it out!

Cold Wars.

2007-06-19T20:12:00.000+08:00

Today was not a good day for me.. So what if my friend goes to the other shop and buy ice sticks? Is it wrong to buy from other shops? My mum made a fuss out of it! My mum said that he dares to come to my house but does not dare to go to my parents shop and buy.. So what if he does not wants to go to her shop and buy it? Is it wrong?

She shouted and made a scene because of it.. I have been bearing all her nonsense for so long.. I had no choice to call the police to help clear and stop this matter.. But guess what? My parents thought that I called the police to ARREST them! What is this!? My father was dissapointed with me but I was more dissapointed with my parents.. My father chose to side with my mum and go against me but instead to be neutral.. My mum still can LAUGH and SMILE when she is in the wrong! Then my when the police left,my mum made another scene.. She shed crocodile tears and shouted, " MY OWN SON MADE A CALL TO THE POLICE AND ATTEMPTS TO ARREST ME!" WTH? WAS IT EVEN A FACT THAT I CALLED THE POLICE TO ARREST THAN TO CLEAR THE MISUNDERSTANDING? Now i know that my parents don't really trust me.. "There is no trust." The phrase for this post.. If you read this,hope that you will understand that I'm not any spoilt brat or some rich man's son.. I'm living in a untrusted family tree and I don't live in happiness but full of sorrow..

May I Rest In Peace.

R.I.P ™

KeL™

Can Sorry Be Used To Stop Fights & Quarrels?

2007-06-18T16:41:00.000+08:00

How powerful is the word "sorry"? How can it be used to stop fights and quarrels? When others tell us to say sorry to the other party, it seems so hard.. But when it is their turn to say sorry..They can't bring themselves to do it.. I know saying the word sorry means that you lose out to that person and you lose face.. But would you rather keep your friendship or your face? I would give up my face and keep our friendship/relationship..

If the word sorry can stop fights and quarrels.. It will be used always..
If the word sorry can make us have a new and beautiful friendship/relationship.. It will be used always..

The word Sorry will be used often.

Something that i want to say.

2007-06-18T00:01:00.000+08:00

There was always i want to say but it was too late to say.. It was also something to take away the grudge.. It has always been in a dark till when I soul searched myself..It comes up to your mind.. All the things I have done was never good..It's hard to change to a good person..I'm just like a rotten apple that will just keep on rotting.. My heart was a good cleanse one.. But bad company ruined it.. It was all my fault that caused it.. I have to blame it on myself.. It was I who chose the wrong way.. It was i that went astray.. I really want to punch myself into senses but it was hard to do it.. Punching myself will just make me even more wrong..

I sincerly want to say sorry to all who i have offended.. I want to change and be a newly born person.. I want to destroy away my bad personalty.. Give me one more chance to turn over a new leaf.. I used to believe in God's words but now I'm just an idiot who is following the bad and the worst.. Mr Goh told me that I'm turning from Bad to Worst! After hearing that,I feel that I'm not worth to live on.. I'm rotting away into a pile of junk and just fade away..

Saying all these.. I hope that everyone can give me one more change to turn over a new leaf and make me make it up to you for all the miriseble things I have done to everyone..

I also want to say..

I'M SORRY EVERYONE!!

Need Help On My Blog Format..

2007-06-17T13:20:00.000+08:00

Heyys..U can see alr that my formating is screwed..Can anyone help me? Rlly need help on dis.. :S

Dun nid le..Its best viewed with Mozilla Firefox.. IE will make it look screwed.. :D

2007-06-12T01:51:00.000+08:00

Heyys..Haven been able to update my blog due to internet failure..Always dc..Now trying to update asap..Now just make a short update..Haiiz..

Ytd went to watch Soccer with Ismail @ Bishan Stadium..So exciting..Home United FC vs LGFC..The score was 2-1..LGFC tyco score..lols..Lewis was like "shocked"..Haha.. Thanks to Indra,he scored 2 goals for HUFC! Haha.. Jiayi's curve ball is so cool..Curve till so solid.. But saddly Indra missed the penalty shoot score..If not will be 3-1.. ><

Besides the excitment and high atmosphere,there were some boo's..One guy was shouting at the team on what to do..It was like,it's their game..Not his..What a nosy guy..Then his son also..Shout dun shout what..We call it..Like father like son..Tsk..

One part the referee made a wrong call and the Fans were shouting, " REFEREE KAYU LA! BALEH KAMPONG LA!" Lols..We LOLed.. There was this uncle..Giving away free tickets..We thought is just some free food coupon but no! It was a free ticket to Gombak vs Tampiness Rovers! We were so at a lost!! FREE TICKETS MAN!! Sheese.. Well,too bad..Hope to go for HUFC vs GUFC! Haha.. HUFC FTW!!!

Today..Went cycling with Ismail,Ishmaris and Chang Hua..We cycled till our asses turned red.. Cycle from TPY to Bishan den to AMK..Den vice versa..From 3.30pm to 8pm..When i reached home..WOO! FINALLY! HOME SWEET HOME! Haha.. Hope that we can have fishing cum bbq..Hehe.. Holidays are also gonna be over soon.. Enjoy while it last!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!! :D

KeL™

Some test i took.

2007-05-30T23:10:00.000+08:00

Here are some test i took online...Here are the results..

You Would Choose Love

Money may buy a little happiness, but not the happiness of true love.
You rather have a true soulmate than a private jet.
And while many people may claim they would choose love too...
You're one of the few who would really do it.

Your Sensitivity Score: 67%

You are a highly sensitive person. Pretty much everything effects you.

You are tuned into the vibe around you, and someone's bad mood can bring you down.

But you also easily share in someone's joy - whether you know them or not.

Your Aura is Red

You have a high level of emotion. This can mean passion, but it can also mean rage.

Usually, you don't take these emotions out on others. You just use them as motivation - and it works!

The purpose of your life: embracing all the wonders of the life, lots of travels, and tons of adventures

Famous reds include: Madonna, Marilyn Monroe, Jennifer Lopez

Careers for you to try: Dancer, Boxer, Surgeon

You're Totally Sarcastic

You sarcastic? Never! You're as sweet as a baby bunny.

Seriously, though, you have a sharp tongue - and you aren't afraid to use it.

And if people are too wimpy to deal with your attitutde, then too bad. So sad.

My Lil Bro's Bdae!

2007-05-20T02:06:00.000+08:00

Heyys! Today is my lil bro's bdae! Haha..Now he sleeping so soundly..Juz now @ 10pm we went to Jalan Kayu to celebrate his bdae..We had our dinner and bdae dinner @ dere.. Happy to see my brother smiling on his bdae.. I dun wana repeat the same thing that happened on my 12th bdae.. A bad memory..Dun wana rake it up..

Den when we arrived @ Jalan Kayu , it was a small world to see Barry having his supper over dere too! Haha..Well, he saw me and juz waved..Lolz...

Den Ytd he bought his bdae pressy..A RC Helicopter.. Something he always wanted.. Now he is so excited abt playing it! Well, i hope to see more of dese happiness everyday..

Happy Bdae Kester!! (:

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Indian Language Camp..BoRiNg~

2007-05-19T15:51:00.000+08:00

Heyys all~ Dis morning wake up so early juz to go skool for the indian language camp..Den met up with sf @ bus stop 88..Den i met him ard 8am.. So late! XD
Den when getting into the birdy, i pui @ the floor den the bloody bus driver see me..Den stare @ me like nvr stare b4.. Den i gan chiong den i ask sf go bus 157 den we see bus come le..Den ask him run he dun wan..Den in the end we missed the bus..Den we go to the time schedule T.V and see the next earliest bus..Den it was Bus 88 @ 8.04.

Den wait till the Bus driver go inside bus.. Den talk about swawness, The Mushroom head driver say, " No bus pass must pay 90 cents..Cannot pay 55 cents.." Den i was like..WTF? I drop in another 50 cents den end up dropping $1.05..Eat my 15 cents.. xP

Den after the stupid bus ride to skool, we went to the hall and went up to the control room..Ismail sit on the box like some sadded boy.. Den we @ the control room zuo bo..Den when the indian gal wan dance,the CD player sot diao..Den we 3 all go ki siao..Duno wad to do..Den bring down the portable amplifier to the hall den test no sound..U noe why?? Ismail go lower the volume to zer0..Smart hor? Testing testing no sound..Bleh..

Den after that Ismail reset the system and managed to get the player working..Den we were like, sian la..Muz be the ppl who do the survey CIP go screw our system.. Screw them make them cry ah!

Going back that tym go up bus,The driver see me no Bus card come kpkb like dis morning de..Den nvm le..Go up the bus sit so comfortable den the fat bus captain come check my ticket..Bloody hell speak about the devil He come kpkb again..Den i kpkb back..Nearly wana punched his bloody black fat face..He lucky i tahan his nonsense ah..

Den reaching 11 am , me and sf go back to tpy and meet ris and tai yen for our pooling session.. Den we go Old Chang Kee to have our breakfast cum lunch.. Den we go meet Kai Loon and Brightston @ Safra..Den we went up to pool..When we ard ending Charles came..Last min boy! xP

We pooled ard 1 hr++ den went off..Tai Yen , Loon , Brightston and Charles went to Mac to have their lunch.. For Tai Yen he had his lunch again.. Lols.. Den Sf and Ris go buy bread from the new bread store nearby Courts den we head off to my house..Well..Now they @ here playing PS2.. That ishmaris come my house like his own.. XD

Thats all for now.. (:

Signing off.

Love,
KeL™

Sian Sian Sian Ah!!

2007-05-18T22:54:00.000+08:00

Hey Hey~ Holidays coming lerhx! But den i still got tuition..So sianz..Muz everyday chiong hw derhx..So sianz..No tym to let my mind off hw and the "tuition stress".. How i wish i can faster end my tuition stream and never go back to the tuition center..

Now parents kpkb say nvr do tuition hw all these... Hear liao can die and can cry.. Always hearing the same old phrases from them..It never changes..

Tmr tuition again..Haiiz.. Why muz dis happen to me!!

Well..Off to hit the sacks..Good nitez all!

God Bless.

Love,
KeL™

2007-05-11T23:48:00.000+08:00

Heyys all.. Now posta short post..Have to chiong tution hw..Well..Today i went to close the shop..While closing,there was a customer and he has his dogged leashed to him..Den the cat there purring like wad..Den suddenly the cat attk the dog..I see liao tio shock..I see le really feel like wana take a broom and whack that cat..It was the 3rd case already..1st case i forget..2nd case is it attk a guys leg..the whole leg was so bloody..Eww..Well..Hope dis things wun happen again.. Now going chiong tution hw lerhx..Cya all~!!

Good NiteZ
God Bless
Peace.

Love,
KeL™

Today i so sick.. ):

2007-05-03T21:39:00.000+08:00

Heyys all..Today morning wake up feel dizzy..Den go skool do Bio paper like dying..When do finish i sleep and drooled on the table.. Eww!! Hahas..Den me,SF,Kai Loon,Royston,Tai Yen,Alvin and
Naomi went to e library to do our art work..I slept at the library and den after we do our art abt so so ,we went home..

Now today ate 2 panadols le..Haiiz..Hope tmr i will be okay.. Hope that God will gib me a Miracle and do well on my Eng paper..

God Bless!
Good NiteZ!

Love,
KeL™

Exams Exams Exams.. Bleh..

2007-05-02T21:47:00.000+08:00

Heyys..Today short post nia..Nth to say much..Juz wana say screw exams big tym.. Nid to stress so much..Bleh.. Tmr Bio paper..Wish me Good Luck.. Haiiz..

All e Best everyone!

God Bless!
KeL™

ITs Time To Let Go..

2007-04-30T20:57:00.000+08:00

All the sad things that have been inside of me..It has been bottled up in my chest for so many years..It has also been going thru me in and out giving me all the weird feelings.. For all these time, I wanted to let them out by talking but it didn't even work.. It is like eating pain killers..It cures for the moment and the next day, it strikes again..

Now it's time to let it all out..I do not know whether i can do it anot.. I don't wana hurt myself anymore.. I don't wana feel the torture anymore.. Everyday and nite i get tortured by it.. Hope and faith won't cut it..Really wana shout it all out.. Can anyone help me with it?? Will anyone be with me to do it?? I do not know.. I wish for a miracle that will help me let it all out.. If you can help me out..Tell me in msn..Thanks alot..

KeL™

I know you are upset in your heart.

2007-04-29T20:19:00.001+08:00

Heyys..Even though you feel upset over some matters..Cheer up! My good frens always tell me..Look at the bright side of life..Dun dwell on those sad things..Once i was totally not myself.. i have thoughts of killing myself.. But my frens and even euu supported me all the way.. Remember me telling you that innocence reminds me of you?? Everyday i listen to it and i also want to let you know that i will be there for you till the day i die..Even if im dead..I wun RIP till you get to find your happiness..I dun wana see hurt..Every time i see you upset..My heart tears and dies..
I just want you to be happy..

God Bless.
KeL™

Its tomorrow already..

2007-04-26T15:28:00.000+08:00

Heyys all..Tomorrow is already Friday..Time flies so fast..How i wonder to reverse the time and undo what i have done... Got a feeling that i may have a miracle that i will pass tomorrow's mother tounge paper..Well..Wish me good luck..

Anyways..Today is Andy's Birthday~!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDY!!
sorry that i didn't give you a bdae present..Trying to save money for something..Sorry brother.. :/

Haiiz..Better study for tomorrow's exam..Dun wana fail my exam..Hahas..

Good Luck to everyone out there!!

Love,
KeL™
God Bless~!!

Friday~!! OH NO!!!

2007-04-25T18:10:00.000+08:00

Hey all~!

Exam is juz dis Friday~!! What am i gonna do?!?! Chinese paper confirm fail de.. No confidence in it..Always fail on that subject..What to do?? Haiiz.. Hope i can get a miracle and pass it.. Well..Nth much to say..Nid to study for exam..

Love,
KeL™
God Bless..

Mid Year Exam..

2007-04-24T21:04:00.000+08:00

It all begins this Friday.. Tomorrow have to start choinging my studies le..I know it's abit too late but i have no choice..Hope that i will put my heart too it..Don't even wish to fail Mid year..If not i retain in Sec 3 and things aint gonnna look pretty..yeah..U know it..

Hope to do well..Wish me good luck..

Love,
KeL™

God Bless~!

Letting My Emotions Out..

2007-04-22T12:50:00.000+08:00

Heys all..I'm trying every way i can to let out my feelings..I'm kinda like in a mess..So many things are twirling in my mind.. Hope that someone can help me let out my emotions.. I really hope not to go back to my old ways..I dont wana cut myself anymore.. I want to stand out from the abyss of chaos.. Hatred , Anger ..Everything that is trying to kill me..

SOMEONE SAVE ME!!!!

ARGH!!!! I WANA KILL MYSELF!!

My brothers..If I ever get expelled from skool,do me my one last favor..Let Me Die..I'm tired of living..I don't wana go thru anymore shit tat is pulling me down..All the things that we have been through..

Brother's..I really appreciate what you have done for me..I love you my brother's..
Hope we can meet again in out next re carnation..

Friends who have gone through thick and thin with me..I thank you so much..Loving you is my part of being with you to repay ur kindness..

I want to end my life peacefully..So help me by letting me kill myself..
Thank you..

LoVe,
KeL ™

May dis be my last time saying..
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING WITH ME..
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!
SEE YOU ON MY NEXT RE CARNATION!!

Missing and Loving Someone..

2007-04-22T02:04:00.000+08:00

eLLoX all..Do you noe how is it like to miss and love someone??

Every time when I'm alone..I will think abt euu..Whenever i tink abt euu..My tears will roll down from my eyes.. My heart will beat fast when i talk to euu.. My heart breaks when you get bullied.. I smile when you are happy.. I feel excited when you tell me new stuff.. You are everything to me.. If you ever leave me.. I will end my life for you.. I am willing to give up my life for you.. It is becoz i LOVE YOU!!

Hope you receive my msg..

Love,

KeL™

My todae and ytd post.. XD

2007-04-18T22:23:00.000+08:00

eLLOx all..I wasn't able to update my blog due to my mum keeping the internet modem..Well,wad can i do?? If I ask for the modem,she will just scold me..Haiiz..Well,now my hope is to pass my exam and i will be able to use the internet with no worries..
So many things happening nowadays..Pressure is getting on to me..So i have to rough it out to be peaceful.. :)

Today me,Tai Yen and Alvin stayed back for Bio remedial..I managed to cope and make up for my past lessons which i have been slacking..I wasn't serious about studies till now..It pays a price for not taking it to hand..Now have to study and stop the temptation from playing computer games..Songs are motivation for me to study and do stuff..Weird huh??

Ever since that case that I have put up,I've lost a Bio teacher and not being able to learn Bio..I really hope that she will forgive my mistakes and give me one more chance to change myself..Porn has been a 3rd party leisure..It is only good and "safe" for you to watch when your above 21..So from now on,i will try to cut porn..Turn over a new leaf and be a new man..Learn to be a grown up man and start to mature even more..

My sworn brother, Quin Weng, was my inspiration..Although he retained at Sec 2,he does not give up..He perserves on and study to get to Sec 3..So i hope i won't retain in Sec 3 and go on t o Sec 4 to take my "N" level's exam..From what i know,he wants to be a physcologist..That is something great!! I'm sure he can make it there.. :D

For me,my ambtion is still hidden..I have a few choices though..MCQ huh?? xP
Here are my choices..
1) Nurse ( sounds sissy?? Think again..)
2) Drummer ( More of a slumberland dream.. :/ )
3) Teacher ( Is it even possible?? )
4) Counseller ( Fat hope?? I'll try.. :D )

Fate is choosen by God and nothing can change it...Just live life to the fullest and never give up..Obstacles are always there to pull you down but Perserverance will be there to pull you up..

My class (2N1) moto,
All For One , One For All !
One go toilet , all go toilet!

9.22 pm 17/4/2007
Love,
Kelvin :)

eLLoX all..Todae Napfa and International Friendship day..The concert was great but short..Den shortly after the concert,Mr.Tan briefed us on Napfa..I was like, Zzz..Napfa cfm die..Den our 1st station was Sit up..I chiong to 35..I was like muz jia you,den Junde was holding my feet..His knee was printed with my shoes.. XD

If it wasn't for Junde,i would not have passed it..Coz he can really do a good job on holding people down.. xP Den next was Inclined Pull Up's..That wan i so gan chiong i never postion my hands properly den cannot do it properly..Haiiz..Wad a wasted chance..Hope to do well on my re-test.. :D
Den next was Sit and reach..I managed to pull it off thanks to my fingernails.. XD It added extra 1 cm..No biggie though.. :/ Den next was Standing broad jump..That wan i failed badly..Coz i suck at that station..Who ask me go train my legs..Now my tigh got muscle so dua jia cannot jump.. XD Den reach final station,Shuttle Run!! Hahas..I failed by 1 sec.. :( sobs sobs..Well,on re-test i will do better!! Haha..

8.13 PM 15-7-2007
Signing Off.
Love,
Kelvin :)

So Happy.. =D

2007-04-16T17:01:00.000+08:00

eLLoX all..E past few dae's have been chatting with Karyan..Nva get to chat with someone that late b4..Hahas..We chatted till 12 ++ or even 1++.. xD

Well..Exams are around the corner..I hope to do well..So i muz study study study~!! XD

All da best to everyone on ya exams!! Good Luck~!! :D

Time Is So Fast..

2007-04-13T23:55:00.000+08:00

Time flies so fast..In a blink of an eye,2 years have passed..How i wonder that i can go back to the past and undo my mistakes..I have been so stupid..Doing all the stupid stuff..

I have been an ass clown for all these years..So this year i hope to change..I hope that someone will guide me along these year.. What to do?? Hope god give me an answer.. :D

Something that what i have always wanted.

2007-04-11T23:16:00.000+08:00

Hi all,it has been a while since i updated my blog..Today got into BIG trouble..I don't know what has gotten into me..It is related to one thing..PORN!! It has gotten me into so much trouble..Now I'm trying to get off the bad habit of watching porn..

Want to know what happened to me today??
It all begins at....

This morning after art lesson..I was getting ready to go off for my next lesson..Then suddenly Mr.Goh pop's by and call me..This was the time where i knew that i have gotten into deep trouble..Outside the door was Person A and Mr.Goh..Then we followed him to the General Office..Then Mr.Goh and Mr.Ng ask me to take out the "stuff"..Luckily it was not with me but sadly it was at my house..Then Mr.Goh took my cellphone and checked for the "picture"..It was good for me that i have deleted it away but sadly to receive it from Person B..Why?? Thanks to my stupidity of course!! Then I sat outside wait for Mr.Goh to finish his parents meeting..After that,Person A went to write his Statement..After that it was my turn...After i wrote it,Mr.Goh called my father to come down and fetch me home to retrieve the "disc"..So i waited from 11 ++ to the end of school which is around 2.35 ?? I guess..

Then my father came..He was furious with what he had heard..I explained everything to him and now he is furious with another thing..Mr.Goh..He asked why did my son have to miss lesson when he has to take something not related to school?? Then they had a so called quarrel.. Then,after the "quarrel" my dad took me home and then he went back to Jurong to continue his work..At that time i felt bad..Now i hope that i will not commit the same offense again!!

So have you guessed what i have always wanted??

I want to Turn Over A New Leaf!!

Back From Philippines..

2006-12-16T16:50:00.000+08:00

Hey all~!! I'm back from Philippines last nite..It was fun there! U shud check it out..haha..Will update more on this..I kinda busy..

Will Be Updated.
~=+=~Will be Right Back ~=+=~

My Flight Delayed.. =/

2006-11-18T03:26:00.000+08:00

Hey all~!!You guys must be expecting that i would be @ Philippines..But no..My flight was delayed due to my EXPIRED PASSPORT~!!! Haha..I felt bad though coz i can't follow my mum and bro's there..I have to stay here.. Haiiz..Later 8am im going to Renew my passport then go help my dad @ the shop..Haiiz Haiiz Haiiz...Nowadays i keep coughing..Now when i cough i can taste or smell blood from my mouth.. =/ I duno how le..Duno wad to do..Also dun wan go see doctor..Verii expensive..Cost $$$...$$ not easy to earn..Haiiz..Money Makes The World Go Round..Well,i am gona stop typing and go slack..Dun feel like sleeping..Active like siao.. XD

Well..I'm Signing off now..

Signing off.
Kelvin Ker.
God Bless.

My Holidays..Haiiz..

2006-11-14T23:43:00.000+08:00

Hey Hey Hey~!! Its been quiet awhile since i updated my blog..Well..This Saturday (18 Nov) will be going overseas to Philippines..Haiiz,you will say.."Thats Great!!"..But no!! I hate it...Hate to go there..Go there do nth..Haiiz...

Then gonna waste 1 whole month (4 weeks) there..My Holidays are so precious!! Sobs..T-T..Then stare at the clouds..See the corridors filled with Dogs..
Then have my "fun" there..Well,after 1 month,i'm gonna patch things up that i missed during the 1 month..Then Maybe mug abit for sec 3.. =/

Well..There isnt much to say..Well,hope i will have fun there..

Signing Off.
Kelvin Ker.
God Bless.

I Love You So Much..Can't You See It??

2006-11-08T11:45:00.000+08:00

I Love you..Can't You See it??I've been keep it a secret about it..Not letting it out from the bottom of my heart..When ever i see you,my heartbeats faster...I've been trying to get your attention,but you didn't notice..I felt bad..I'm always trying to show you my love but no avail..God stood up in heaven watching me fail..

I Loved you since the day i met you..It was a crush,slowly i began to have feelings for you..Whenever someone flirts with you,I do get jealous..But I have to live with it..How i wish you could be with me..

Loving someone isn't easy to show..Unless you have the courage to do so..I'm not the man you might like,you might find a better person..Please tell me your feelings..My Feelings for you is above the Sky..

In Other Words...

I Love You~!!!

Someone who nvr's understand us..

2006-10-18T17:41:00.000+08:00

I've met 2 person..I wun disclose thier names..They have been teaching me for almost 1 year..Last year,My form teacher was understanding , kind , fun and full of humor..This year,it turned into dark..We were stuck at the abyss of chaos of these 2 person..We suffered more then we enjoyed..This isnt wad we are there for..Everytime we do something good..They will accuse us of doing something bad!!I hate it when we were wrongly accused..Urgh!!

There is one teacher whom i hated the most...She dun even talk to us properly..She does not even RESPECT us..Yes..The word is RESPECT!! When we say abt RESPECT,she says caring..WTF is this??Changing the subject?? If she dun wan to RESPECT us,SO BE IT!! We wun even give a 0.01% of respect to her...She dun even deserves it..She wans sympaty..Do we pity her?? NO!!

She was a thorn in our hearts of love and respect..She is self centered..I repeat..SELF CENTERED!! She tinks of herself only..Spared a thought for us?? Wad do u tink?? Obviusly,NO again!!

IN OTHER WORDS..
SHE
SIMPLY
SUCKS!!!!

Being Lost When ur Alone..

2006-10-04T21:32:00.000+08:00

Hiie everyone..Its been awhile since i updated my blog..Nowadays many things have been happening..Well,there is this particular guy..I wun mention his name..He is a guy,who tinks of himself too highly..He is like too proud of himself..He tinks he is always right..He tinks everything tat he do is a One Man Show..Everything~!! Even when we are saying a topic..He has to Boast and LIE!! He says he has this he has tat..Well,most of the time..HE LIES~!!! When he lie,he doesnt lie the correct way..He lied in a way which is Obvius tat ppl noes his lying..This guy,He Lies,Break promises,too proud,uses phrases which ppl teaches him and used it on us which is despicable..He doesnt deservers the privillage of us teaching him something..He is something which something despises..
I was good frens with him..Me,him and Fren B..We 3 are together..We have fun together..We have bonded together so tightly tat we can even trust each other with our deepest Secret..Then one day,he went to another group of ppl..Which tat they are spoilt brats..

I was with another group of ppl..Me,Fren A,Fren B and Fren C..
Fren A,his a BodyBuilder..Who is someone,who i admired for his Muscles..
Fren B,his a daredevil..Someone who DARES to do things but oso someone who nvr cares abt consiquences..
Fren C,My "brother"..Who i trust the most..I share my dark secrets with him..My problems,everything..We are like Blood Brothers..

We have been Fooling around in school this year..Usually we go to the toilets to fool around..Its a place where we can have out private fun and have laughs..But these "fun" is also Dangerous..Usually,we throw wet toilet papers at walls and laugh..This was the MOST COMMON gag tat ppl do..When we finish out "job"..Fren B will do the finishing touches..Example,Locking Cubical doors..Then we leave and go for the next lesson..When we do these..We Don't tink of the consiquences..We Just Do it..Then there was once..I was naughty enuff to take RED and splash it on the toilet walls..Then we laugh till we drop..Then when do it..We will run away frm the scene and not noticing who was around us..Tat is the mistake tat criminals or offenders do..Then when this group of boys go in the toilet..WHOA~!! WAT THE HECK?!?! They see a splash of red ink all over the wall..Then they go report to the teachers and its like a crime scene..Then they will take pictures of it..Then they will check the CCTV or shud we say the survalliance camera and see who is the culprit..Well,tats how we get caught..

I have created a Chaos for myself these pass few weeks..I did something Really Really Nasty..Well,I will tell u tat on my next post..U dun really wana noe wad really happenned..

As for now,i wll be signing off..
P.S. That unfaithful fren of mine simply SUCKS!!

Signing Off.
Kelvin Ker.
God Bless.